Maseehai

Kis qadar udaasi hai...
shor kitna hai barpa..

iss qadar udaasi mey
aisa khat kisay likhoon?...
jisko tu na parh paey
bin parhay samajh jaey....

beykali ye yoon kuch hai
ik fana ka alam hai
urtay phirtay hain kuch gidh
pinjer mey taaffun hai

apni aankh se bach ker
koi kub kahan bhagay?
zer e lub sifarish hai 'qaid se riha kar dou'
haath hai jakar rakha apni aasteeno mey

butt shikan banay phirna
tesha yoon liyey phirna
tum bhi kya masiha ho?
main bhi ik masiha hoon
tum mujhay khatam kar dou
main tumhain riha kar doon ..

aur phir shuru kar dien
apni hee maseehai ...

ab nahi raha jaata ...
yoon nahi jiya jaata...
tum mujhay khatam kardo
main tumhain riha kar doon

aur karain maseehai...

-Zaofishan

Lost.....

So..... I hear people endlessly talk about the latest movies they have seen, the book they have managed to read which nobody else could in such short span of time, I hear the unwanted news about the tv anchors, actors, news reporters, I hear endless gossips, I hear endless suggestions on the way I should dress up, ...and I hear endless immature flattering comments on myself which I neither like nor trust...and then I end up looking back into the time when I was all about this...In fact more worse than I could ever mention. So, all this shouldn't annoy or irritate me. But, I am too mad to be annoyed...I am too lost to be irritated...I am too numb to be enraged ...I have lost my path into a tunnel as empty, shallow and hollow as myself. A tunnel with so much void in it..with so much light in it that it eventually make you go blind and with this blind vision...I wander..I run..I jump ..I scream..... Where is the substance? I need emotions, I need warm, humane conversations about birds, about how does it feel when heart breaks, about rain, about how much your mother loves you, about that incident which made you closer to God or which turned you into a disbeliever, about when you cried your eyes out, about your silliest mistake..Where is that truth? ..where is that purity?...where is that substance....where are those people ....?
But, my voice gets lost in thousands of other voices.

-Zaofishan....

Pain....

There is endless pain without any kind of direction. Pain without direction is the most dangerous energy in the world. It traps you in an inexpressive whirl of madness yet it sets your soul completely free and independent. A soul which belong to no place and a soul without a home is like a naked body lying in the snow which gets colder and colder and bluer and bluer with each moment. Its like you are lying on the bed of needles and each needle is piercing you deep inside, one moment you feel intense pain and next moment you don't feel anything you become numb due to so much pain. You become prisoner of your pain. What should I tell you when you ask me that despite of so many people I don't consider anybody my friend?
But, isn't it a chapter in everybody's book of life?. For some people this chapter extends to other chapters and for some people this chapter covers the whole story.
I am scared… I have no motivation to get out of this mess. This scares me the most..having no motivation and constantly engaging into behaviors that are not productive and could lead to destructive patterns. I feel immense pain and I don’t know how to channelize it …I just don’t want to do anything… this scares me…




- Zaofishan.

LOVE~

Hmmm...I have been thinking a lot on certain issues and I came to a conclusion that, LOVE always exist between souls (All human beings). Sometimes you have to dig deeper to find it. Sometimes you are the only one who have to make an effort and dig. A love story always exists between souls. Its up to you whether you explore it or let it die unexplored. Its upto you that how you design your love story.

Sometimes relations exist between the souls but love stories start very late between people because they decide to dig very late. For instance, Love story of a daughter-in-law with her mother-in-law, Love story of two sisters, Love story of married couples etc.The crucial question is, Do you want a love story?. The simplest solution is: Design your own. Take initiative.


Love truly and passionately and don't regret if it turned out to be unsuccessful. At least you experienced something which is closest to magic :).Plus, there is no end to any love story. You always cherish and remember it with varying intensity.


Zaofishan.

"skip" option in life.

I'm wondering that sometimes you choose 'Skip' option in life because you are too tired of the 'pause' button, wanting to get back to the start line while you are at the finishing point. Just to start fresh, but, you fail to do so because there is nothing fresh..there are no aspirations no inspirations no chances. Just... like when you desperately want to write something and there are no ideas in your mind. Its like the train has started to move and you are still standing on the platform..looking at it. Can not decide whether to hop in or to let go every dream, memory and moments with the train.......with each passing moment eyes are losing clarity. It is difficult to let go the world...but it is three times more difficult to find no pleasure in pleasure.
You tell yourself that everything is fine and then absorbed in a totally different
situation..suddenly you remember something and all that warmth you feel in your heart, run through your eyes. I really wish I knew a language which nobody else could understand....so that I could pour my heart out in words and nobody could read and understand it.
-Zaofishan

Bipolar nation or Being human?

Do we suffer from Bipolar disorder as a nation? at one time we are weeping for the unfortunate victims around us&just within seconds we r distracted by the utmost happiness about something then we swing toward depression which is followed by our high and false expectations to change everything. So, Do we suffer from bi...polar disorder as a nation? Or is all this called " Being Human" ?

What's your plan?

Days of floods are here and most of the people I know sadly are in deep despair due to the situation of the city and country. They don't tell me anything apart from the frustration they are experiencing because they feel helpless about changing the scenario. They feel they can not change anything.Some of them are thinking about the reasons why all this is happening. Few come up with reasons concerning religion and few of them blame the big daddies of our Government. Everybody is doing the same thing in different guises--They are all sincerely trying to figure out the reasons. Their worrisome tones and confused thoughts reminds me of all the dark things. So......I asked myself that what I should do now. What should I think? What kind of philosophy should I develop of this whole scenario? I asked myself that is this all so severe that I could actually think of changing my life goal? that I could actually become more serious about life? Shall I read and watch news 24/7 like many other people in hope of developing political sensibility?? In hope of unveiling the secrets of government and their big hidden plans? and what if I actually got to know everything ..what if I manage to catch the picture of whole scenario clearly?Then what? what would be the next step? French revolution?

So, what should I do?and BINGO! ..how about gaining some inspiration out of the whole scenario? How about using this pain, fear, anger and frustration as a fuel? how about not wasting my time and energy on discussing and reading frustrating articles and watching negative news all day long and utilizing the time and energy to stick to a plan with persistence and consistency?
A plan for providing emotional and rational support to your colleagues,students, class mates, cousins etc?A plan for giving your youngsters better ideology instead of trash news channel info?A plan for standing up for others? A plan for focusing on betterment of your self?A plan for cracking 3 jokes per day to lighten up someone's mood?A plan for saving your money to feed the needy ones?A plan for planting suitable plants in the locality?( My environmental science's sir's favorite plan)A plan to write something inspirational?or bigger plans relating to jumping right into the scenario?
So, what's your plan? ...kya scene hai?