I have pointed out something in myself today which has been unknown for so long. I wanted to change or the better word would be 'Grow', I desperately wanted to grow as a human and I wanted to kick everything evil out of me. But, my desperation blinded me to see something very important within my self. I have been a super assertive, Sarcastic and quick-to-point-flaws kind of person and couple of years ago I realized that I was hurting many people who were slightly extra sensitive. So, I decided to change and I started abandoning and rejecting that part of my self until it faded away. But now I have decided to be myself again for a while until I figure out a way to modify and integrate these cerebral aspects of my personality with 'something' which would have the ability of balancing these aspects.
And why am I thinking of doing this? : Because, I have realized that you can never change yourself by rejecting yourself. You have to be yourself in order to change yourself. Because when you start rejecting yourself a void is created as a replacement of your rejected self and friends, Void can not be changed, modified, nurtured or grown.